Saturday, September 25, 2010

beauty in the brokeness.

i've got a couple dents in my fender, i've got a couple rips in my jeans;
try to fit the pieces together but perfection is my enemy.
on my own i'm so clumsy but on your shoulders i can see.

Street art: using branches, twigs and debris from the hurricane, we decorated the paths along Gower Street.

As you may recall, the end of September saw some pretty crazy weather out here on the Rock. Much of coastal Newfoundland was ravaged by Hurricane Igor, a severe weather system that shocked the entire province with its magnitude. We were not expecting much more than a tropical storm, and the damage that resulted was more than we could ever have anticipated.

For the days following the hurricane, many residents of St. John's and surrounding rural areas were left without power: no heat, no running water and no electricity. Stores were closed so getting basic supplies was next to impossible. Many areas declared a state of emergency as the conditions of their region were hazardous and in a state of desperation. Driving through the streets, I could see the damage first hand: massive trees completely uprooted, pulling up sidewalks, sheds and decks in their path; shingles and debris everywhere; washed out streets and curbside garbage from flooded homes.

The damage: an uprooted tree along Military Road by Bannerman Park.

Watching the news only served to make me more thankful for getting through the storm unscathed. A man was swept into the ocean when his driveway washed away, with his body being recovered a few days later, entire barns were being blown apart and then floating over the edge of cliffs, buses bobbing down the roads and many people being left homeless when their apartment building blew apart.

In the midst of the chaos and confusion caused by Igor, I was just beginning my volunteer placement in St. John's at an inner city art studio drop-in centre for resilient youth. The centre, known as "Love of Learning" to the teens in the area is a safe haven for many of the at-risk youth in the area. We embrace all people to come as they are. If you are homeless, a prostitute, a drug addict, in a gang, HIV positive, all labels are left at the door and the second you walk in, you become a friend. Besides teaching the youth basic life skills to help them get on their feet such as creating resumes and applying for jobs, we teach classes that encourage teens to express themselves in creative and constructive ways such as through art, music, dance and theatre. Whether it involved serving a hot meal, teaching a young man to sew a patch to his pants or just listening to someone who needs a shoulder to cry on, I have never been surrounded by so much hope.

An archway that we created over an bench on Duckworth Street.


The most amazing time that I spent with them was on the Friday following the hurricane. As we walked through Bannerman with a group of teens, we saw the destruction right before our eyes. The ground was strewn with fallen branches, the path was obstructed by uprooted trees and littered with clothing that was blown of neighbouring clotheslines. Our intentions were to create artwork out of the debris and nature, using the work of Andy Goldsworthy (www.morning-earth.org/artistnaturalists/an_goldsworthy.html), creating artwork out of nature and leaving it for the world to appreciate without taking from the natural environment.

As we walked along the streets, we created archways out of fallen trees, trellaces out of broken branches and designs on the sidewalks made from twigs and leaves. As we walked to Bannerman Park, we began to collect random debris that had been blown into the streets by the storm, picking up stray a sippy cup, a clothesline pulley and a Rubix Cube.

Using our mish mash of objects, we used caution take that we took down the caution tape that had been used to mark off an area with a fallen tree and a piece of stray wire to create a lovely work of art. Standing in a circle, the youth held the wire in a round shape and we began to weave the caution tape into the circle, affixing our random objects to the creation.

Our 15 foot dreamcatcher made out of wire, caution tape and debris, that we constructed and left at Bannerman Park.

After about half an hour, we had made a 15 foot dream catcher, weaving our hopes, dreams and prayers into the dream catcher. As we made this work of art, preparing to leave it in the park for other people to appreciate, I couldn't help but think that this kind of artwork, using what one would consider trash to make something beautiful, very much mirrored the volunteer position that I had been given. The people that came into the drop-in often arrived hopeless and desperate, seeking a place to belong. Throughout their lives, people told them they were worthless, useless and made them feel like outcasts, shoving them aside like garbage and leaving them at the curb like there meant nothing. But it does not have to be like this. Who are we to decide another person's worth? Who are we to decide what is garbage and what is a treasure? With a little time, compassion, creativity and love, every person, no matter how worthless they may feel can be transformed into something beautiful. It might be just a needle and thread to mend some ripped jeans or a hug and an encouraging word to mend a broken heart, there is nothing, no one that is beyond repair.

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"The moment we choose to love we begin to move against domination, against oppression. The moment we choose to love we begin to move towards freedom, to act in ways that liberate ourselves and others. That action is the testimony of love as the practice of freedom." - Bell Hooks


"But you, God, shield me on all sides; you ground my feet and you lift my head high." -- Psalm 3.3

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

young hearts run free.

love arrives safely, suitcase in tow,
carrying with her the good things we know:
a reason to live and a reason to grow,
to trust, to hold, to care.

Welcome to St. John's: standing on the coast by Signal Hill.

I must apologize for the delay with this entry because I realize that it is long overdue, but my very hectic schedule has kept me from updating you about my travels.

I embarked on this adventure on September 8th, 2010, saying difficult goodbyes to my brother, my mom, my dad and my best friend Joshua at the airport. (For those of you that are interested in following his travels, Joshua is also heading to Africa on a similar program for the year, starting his work in Winnipeg. You can follow his incredible journey and watch him touch many lives around the world at http://www.joshua-journey.blogspot.com/).
Upon meeting the Ghanaians at the Halifax airport, I was immediately entranced by their infectious spirit of joy. After spending 32 hours on planes and in airport layovers, they arrived in Nova Scotia singing and dancing, playing the drums and hugging their new friends like they were old friends. This energy continued as we bussed from Halifax to the small town of Tatamagouche to begin our orientation and cultural integration at the United Training and Retreat Centre.
In the five days we spent at the retreat centre learning about cultural integration, the most profound moments of connection and unity were not mapped in diagrams or explained by guest speaking sociologists. We overcame language barriers with dance parties in the lounge and taste differences by smothering our food in shito (hot pepper sauce). Of course, we couldn't help but chuckle at the fact that all the Ghanaians wore scarves, mitts, hats and socks with their sandals when the temperature was 20 degrees.
Of the entire week, one moment stood out the most. As two young men on my team are of First Nations ancestry, one is from the Sioux nation in Calgary and the other is from Nunavut, they noticed that there was an eagle continually circling our camp. This is seen an an ancient Native blessing as being beneath the eagle's wing is a sign of safety and sanctuary, I feel that this year will be a test of spiritual, emotional and physical endurance and I am more than ready to face the challenge. I can honestly say that I felt so safe and welcome in Tatamagouche and it was difficult to say goodbye to the loving hospitable people in that community even after a mere five days.

In a fishing boat in Tatamagouche with Lucy... and her apple.

Having been set up with a couunterpart and a host family during my time in Tatamagouche, I was thrilled to finally have somewhere to call home. I was welcomed with my counterpart Esene at the St. John's airport by the Parsons family who quickly made us feel at home.
My counterpart, Esene, is from Accra, the capital of Ghana and she came to Canada as a youth amabassador with SYTO Ghana. Like me, she is passionate about bettering the lives of children in Ghana through providing education to some of the most impovrished regions in Ghana. She is a lovely 19 year old who enjoys music, is very genuine and honest.

I cannot even explain to you how blessed I am with my host family. My host mothers, Charlene and Tammy and host sisters, Lisa, Justine and Alyssa live in central St. John's, about a five minute drive to the coast in one direction and five minute drive downtown in the other direction. They are an incredibly loving and welcoming family. Despite feeling slightly overwhelmed with the thought of not returning home until April, they put my mind completely at ease and made me feel like family right away. We have so many adventures in store for our stay on the Rock: from trapeze school to whale-watching and watching the sunrise from the east coast. I am so grateful for the times we will be sharing the next two months.

Standing at the look out overlooking the city along the Cabot Trail.

St. John's can be summed up in one word: beautiful. Beautiful people; people who go out of their way to make complete strangers feel like family. Beautiful scenery; scenery that literally takes your breath away and cannot possibly be captured by a camera.

Over the course of my time here, I have climbed Cabot Trail to Signal Hill, marveling at the beauty of God's creation every step of the way. I had coffee with the mayor of St. John's, meeting a man who genuinely cares about the direction his city is going. I had the privledge of meeting Stephen Lewis, a notable politician and reknowned activist for AIDS awareness and research in Africa, and was honoured to have met him and spoken with him about our health care development work in Ghana. I have let the freezing cold, eight foot ocean waves sweep me off my feet, not regretting a single second of the wet drive home from the cove. I have stood on the cliffs of Newfoundland, looking out across the Atlantic Ocean to where my life is headed this coming year. I am so excited for what the rest of this adventure has in store and I know that this is just the beginning of an incredible journey.

Letting the waves tickle my toes at Middle Cove Beach.

I will sum up my experience with a favourite memory from my trip so far: Tatamagouche is filled with apple trees and they were ripe for the picking during our time there. Most mornings, we would just walk by, sometimes we would grab an apple of the tree, shine it on our shirts and eat it, but we never made a big fuss. One morning, the Ghanaians were walking through a patch of apple trees and noticed the apples on the trees. They began to stuff their coat pockets, jean pockets, shirts and bags with the fruit and eating two or three at a time. When I asked why they were so excited about the apples, they told me that back home they cost one cidie, or about one dollar and fourty cents for an apple, whereas here they are so plentiful that we can walk out the door and pick one from the tree. I hope that this moment is indicative of the entire adventure: may we never take these precious apple moments for granted and pass them by without a second thought but rather reach out for as many as we can carry, keep them safe in our hearts and cherish their flavour for as long as we can.

Picking fresh blueberries along the trail in Pouch Cove.

All my love to everyone back home. You mean the world to me and I am so blessed to have your continued love and support. You are in my heart every second of this expereince. May this year be as wonderful for you as it will be for me.

Pure Ghanaian Joy: Dancing on the Bus

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"I see my path, but I don't know where it leads. Not knowing where I'm going is what inspires me to travel it." - Rosalia de Castro

Sunday, August 22, 2010

where you invest your love, you invest your life.


"I feel tied to this life. Bound by decisions I never made, decided by people I have never met. Greeted with an outcome, beginning with an end, I am struggling to free myself of an upbringing I did not choose. Instead of looking at the world through the privileged eyes of a North American, I want to broaden my vision and see life through a non-Western perspective. I want to discover for myself and break free from a worldview that I don't believe. I want to be cut down, sliced up, bashed and thrown this way and that... then rebuild myself into a shape that I dictate on my own terms, incorporating new meanings into my world. Until the, I am living someone else's decisions, thoughts and beliefs. I am ready to start living on my own."
- Journal Entry, November 2009


As summer slips through my fingers and I start counting down the days until I embark on my big adventure, I am spending more and more time counting my blessings. Throughout my entire life and especially in the past few years, I have been surrounded by so many loving, supportive people who have encouraged and inspired me to follow my dreams and push the boundaries. I owe many people thank you's and words cannot possibly express my gratitude.

Thank you...

to my family who have loved and supported me in my calling and keep mr grounded during all the preparations.

to my friends who have been there for me since day one, and are the most amazing people on the planet.

to everyone who donated to my fundraising efforts -- as much as I want to list you all by name, but I realize that you may not want your names posted -- this mission would not be possible without you. Your generosity will change lives.

to Bridlewood Community Church of the Nazarene -- you have been such an integral part of my life for the past five years and I am eternally grateful for all the love, support and hospitality you have shown me. Your friendship, prayers and encouragement is a constant motivation.

to the Stittsville Rotary Club and the Stittsville Soccer League who have been so generous in offering to assist me with collecting and sending team sets of soccer jersey's overseas to the children of Ghana.

to the wonderful people at both of my jobs, Hallmark and Granite Ridge -- thank you for welcoming me onto your teams and being such incredible co-workers, friends and mentors. The opportunities you have provided me are priceless.

As the plans for my departure are finalized, I have become increasingly eager for this trip. I realize that it will be a long haul. I am already missing family and friends and I haven't even set foot outside my province. I had the amazing pleasure of saying goodbye to so many close friends and family members yesterday and I am eternally blessed for the impact that each person had on my life. It is challenging to let go but I am unbelievably excited for what God has in store for the next year.

As I board the plane for Halifax on September 8th, know that you are in my heart and on my mind.

Thank you for your love and support. It means the world to me.

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"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.” - Melody Beattie


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

the road ahead.

now that i have seen,
i am responsible,
faith without deeds is dead.


It is hard to find the words to capture the emotions that I feel when I think about what is in store this next year. I am humbled and overjoyed, excited and terrified, blessed and grateful all in the same breath. As I am called beyond my comfort zone and beyond my borders, I remember that he works in radical ways, comforting the disturbed and disturbing the comfortable.

If I can sum up my journey for the next year in one sentence, I would tell you that I have been called to be a witness to love: to love and be loved. I truly believe that this is what our world is desperately in need of - lovers, people who are building deep, genuine relationships and who know the faces of the people behind the issues they are concerned about.

I have seen this love in my own community: watching my peers rally together to build a school in Uganda or set a world record for the biggest hug in honour of a friend with cancer. Love is in smiles and laughter, tears and compassion. I have been shown so much love and I only hope that I can reflect a fraction of it into the lives of those I meet.

Over the next year, as I travel to St. John’s, Newfoundland and Saltpond, Ghana with a group of strangers, I pray that love is not just our inspiration, but our purpose and our goal. This love is not a destination and will not culminate at the end of the six month experience, but will transcend borders and time, transform communities and individuals.

The next year will be unforgettable. I don’t know exactly where I will end up -- maybe in an AIDS clinic, an orphanage, a neonatal intensive care unit, a school, a hospital, a shelter and or a nursing home -- but I know that wherever I am is exactly where I am meant to be.

I want to know what its like to really love others: without reservation or hesitation. So I’ve decided to spend the next year on the experiment.

Feel free to join me. We might just change the world.

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"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier." - Mother Theresa

Saturday, July 25, 2009

love is still a worthy cause.

I love because I was loved
When I had nothing


A few days ago, something reminded me of the love that is in each and every person. A lady came to the reception where I work and asked if a particular name sounded familiar to me. Unfortunatley, I didn't recognize it but she stopped and explained her situation, telling me that she got a call from London, England from an elderly man who was looking for a long lost friend and found her phone number. The lady immediatley dropped everything she was doing and was determined to find this woman so that they could be reuinted and spent days traveling all over the city to every retirement facility aking if the name was familiar. She said that she would hate to call the man back and tell him she could not find his friend or even shrug it off like so many others without putting in the effort.

Quite honestly, we tend to overlook the simple acts of kindness so easily. How many times a day does someone hold the door for you or pick up a piece of trash on the road? Accept the challenge and go above and beyond what you would normally do, setting an example in selflessness and compassion.
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"Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves." - James Matthew Barrie